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I know it is somewhat rude to talk about money and finances, but I want to share this information to show what we are working with!

Anyway, so I work online teaching English in one on one classes. This can be pretty fun, and by the hour, I get paid sufficiently. The problem is that because I only have classes when students want them, I have big gaps in my schedule.

Today I had two classes, from 6 PM to 8 PM my time.

For working these two classes, I more or less got enough money to pay for my grocery bill for a week. *depending on how greedy and fancy I get.

That is almost ridiculous. It is more ridiculous that to pay for rent or anything like that, I would have to work a full schedule and then still might not even qualify.
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It is Wednesday and I am just writing about this now, but I spent my weekend in Liberia, Guanacaste Province, which is about 100 straight miles away, but is actually much further through the mountains and around the water.
It was different, much hotter, around 32-34C. Pretty tiring!
I am glad I went somewhere else, but I am also glad to be home.
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Since a lot of people here like fandoms...

I had a dream about Doctor Who. It had the Tenth Doctor and Donna Noble in it. The rest has faded. An interesting choice of dream material!

When I woke up, I had slept through the night. (A rarity nowadays, see last entry), and it was one of those times when I wake up and I can't even remember what day it is or who I am---like a dazed waking, which can be a good thing.
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I woke up an hour too early today. Tried to get back to sleep. And I couldn't, so on a day when I could have done so many things and got my house in order...I basically just kept hitting "refresh" on the intarwebs, hoping to get stimulation.

...and if you were to go back to my original Livejournal in 2002, you would probably read a lot of entries like that.

Anyway, they can't all be winners.
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This has happened twice in the past week. And has happened many times in my life!

In two conversations, I mentioned preparing food using ready made ingredients, in one case pancake mix, in the other, refried beans. And in both cases, people said, with somewhat condescending voices "Well, why don't you just get some flour and baking powder" or "It is a lot cheaper to get dried beans and..."

Well, the reason for that is quite simple: I am staying in a one room AirBnb with a kitchenette that has two hot plates, a microwave, an electric kettle and a rice maker. And about two square feet of counter space and a tiny sink that rapidly fills up if I do anything. And a single cupboard that is already overflowing just from a few items.

Things that might be "easy" for people in a complete kitchen are not easy for me here. Like, I could do these things, but it would be prohibitively complicated and messy. And for very little return: I would probably be saving a few dollars for my troubles.

The context of why I moved to a foreign country and am staying in an AirBnB is not so I can have elegant, home cooked meals from scratch. The context of why I am here is to do things that I couldn't do otherwise, and having to live on a fairly basic and repetitive diet, and having to buy prepared ingredients, is a price I am willing to pay to get an experience that I couldn't have otherwise, not something I am doing because I am too stupid to know what flour is.

Also, these conversations are usually, or always, with women, who seem to assume that I am a dumb dude who only knows how to microwave macaroni and cheese and that I need their guidance about cooking. :/
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insane.

The entire idea that miles away, there is a big pool of water held back by concrete, and that physical pressure moves gigantic turbines, generating magnetism that turns into electricity that travels down wires until it enters a house and excites some gases...

It is pretty hard to comprehend, actually.

So I feel the same is true sometimes of social systems. Even when we objectively can understand that money isn't real and its value is set through a complicated process, that is very different from how we understand the money in our pocket.

And there are other social processes that happen even more intangibly, but that I more or less use when I think about how the world works. But if I use those explanation out of nowhere, it sounds like I am describing a turbine in a lake!
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Kind of related to that last map:
I spent a lot of my life in Portland, including my 20s. LJ was actually formed in Portland, and incidentally to that, LJ had a big usergroup, called "DamnPortlanders", where we talked about Portland related things, and also non-Portland related things. It had one of the best things about an internet community---some people were just watching, while others were more of the core group---a few dozen people actually became friends in real life. We had monthly meetups. There were also, based on the demographics of the time, shenanigans, with the safety of being online giving people an opportunity to meet.
(Interesting note: there was one woman who I met online on LJ in probably 2005-2006---and in 2023 we finally met in person and went on a date!)

I don't think lightning will quite strike twice as far as how online communities form, but I do know that online communities can become real communities---and there was a feeling, both giddy and cozy, that I associate with the 2000's and LJ.
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Places visited map

It took a long time to color in this map, county by county (and, chances are, I might have missed a space). Of course, it took a long time to visit all those spaces...even if I did start back in the 1980s! :)

In the United States, I have lived in Oregon (for 25+ years), in Washington (for over 10 years), in Montana (for 5 years) and in California for 1 year and in Vermont for 1 year. I think. Living in this variety of places has shaped my views on many things.

I have also lived in Chile for 3 years and in Costa Rica for almost a year.

I might post more about that coming up!
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"Does this content or interaction in anyway contribute to a real sense of community?"

Basically, I realized that some internet interactions, however tenuously, are related to a real sense of community. That doesn't mean the community ever has to happen in the real world (although many times it can lead to that), but that the content or interaction or whatever will somehow foster or develop a real sense of shared values or interests. As opposed to being just stimulation meant to get people through 5 more minutes, even if that is by making them feel enraged.

That is one reason I signed off of Facebook a few weeks ago, and have been posting here. I think, however indirectly it might be, that this place does have a real sense of community.
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Yesterday I walked over Ochomogo Pass. Which might not make much sense with explanation.
The Ochomogo Pass is the main pass over the continental divide in Costa Rica, between the Pacific and Atlantic sides of the country. And if this sounds like a romantic mountain journey---well, there is actually just a big freeway that goes over the pass, and it is loud and probably a dumb thing to do to walk along the side of the freeway for an hour just to have bragging rights that I've walked over the pass.
But that is what I did with my Friday.
And now it is Saturday, and I am somewhat tired after all that exertion!
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So Friday I went out for a trip. Across the continental divide, even! To a new place!
But Friday isn't the point.
The point is Saturday...a day when, it seems, I should be feeling relaxed and enjoy just taking a day to recover and poke around.
Instead, every Saturday, I feel antsy, but also tired. And slightly annoyed/frustrated at the world! This is somewhat a Costa Rica problem, at least in Oregon, I enjoyed my Saturdays...but there, of course, I had more places to go. Here I really don't, at least in my neighborhood.
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I should probably mention a few things about Costa Rica!

The first thing is that Costa Rica is a "middle income country", at least that is what I would call it.
But what does that mean?
Basically, for me, it means that I don't see a lot of extreme poverty, but that things are a little bit more cracked/jury-rigged than I am usually used to. But also, some of that is cultural.

There are a few "shantytowns" or "precarios" in Costa Rica, places built out of spare lumber and tin, but they are less common than homeless camps are in the United States, from what I have seen. There is also not anything like a problem with obvious malnutrition (and any malnutrition that does occur is probably due to fast food/junk food). There is also probably close to 100% literacy. There are schools and medical clinics everywhere.

The big difference that I've noticed is that a lot of the infrastructure is older. Bus lines, of which there are many, sometimes use old American school buses. Sidewalks disappear. Traffic has to alternative over one lane bridges. San Jose's passenger train network is based on a century year old freight railroad.

Some of the difference is cultural. I especially notice this with transportation: there aren't routes or schedules for the buses. The buses aren't operated by a central transit agency. If you want to figure out where to go, you just have to kind of...know. But this isn't due to a lack of technology or money, at least sometimes. I walked into a small grocery store in a little mountain town, and the cashier had a 30 inch flat panel monitor for her register. But the train stations don't even have a dot matrix display for arrival or departure time of trains. Part of the jury-rigging of infrastructure just seems to be a cultural thing.
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I am tired now, but not to worry, because uh, work starts again tomorrow!
But work will probably mean I am *less* tired because I will be working a normal schedule and focusing on work, and not focusing on seeing what type of adventures I can get up to.
But of course, since my life is in a state of flux, that routine...will not be very routine, and will not last for long.
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I tried to walk across the continental divide today, on a road that didn't exist.
It started out as a gravel road, that got to a gate, and that then turned into a grass road that went up for about a half mile before dead ending in a gigantic pipe coming out of the ground...and a muddy trail that I thought might go somewhere but then disappeared in the rainforest.
I went up the trail, thinking that it might turn into a rough but passable trail, but no.
And the thing that is hard to describe, was how lost and scared I felt when I was really only 50-100 feet up that trail...only a half mile from a house, but with the sudden realization that if I slipped on the muddy trail and fell down a ledge, I was really really out there.
I am 45. Maybe tramping around roads that don't exist in the rain forest isn't the best planning on my part?
But sometimes it pays off.

Happy 2025!

Jan. 1st, 2025 12:49 am
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We are less than one hour into the New Year in Costa Rica.
So funny story: I have been reading "Naked Came I", the biography of Auguste Rodin, over the past few weeks. My copy, which I found in the library's free book gazebo, was falling apart, which made it harder to read. But I was getting through it, and when I woke up today I had about 80 more pages to read. I thought to myself "I might as well finish this in 2024".
Then, as we got later on into the evening, I realized that it was 11:30 and that I had set it down and still had almost exactly 30 pages left to read! I thought I read at about a page a minute, so I started reading, and looking up to see that as the clock went down...I had the same amount of pages remaining. Down to 10, 5, and 2 pages, and 10, 5 and 2 minutes...well, the book was about a page longer than I had calculated, and so the big fireworks started going off just as Auguste Rodin was on his death bed. So I missed my totally arbitrary goal by 1 or 2 minutes.
Okay, and also, maybe I shouldn't have given myself such a weird and arbitrary goal, but: it did inspire me to finish something.
And maybe that is a metaphor for 2024.
But now, by which I mean we, and probably the reader, is in 2025.
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Hello everyone---I have some new followers (still trying to figure out how to add back...)
I am hungover today. Which isn't something that happens often. Every once in a while I think "some alcohol will clear up some of the cruft in my head".
Also, I am in Costa Rica. So maybe it seems like drinking some beers would mean going down to the local neighborhood spot, a nice outdoor dining area on a tropical night, and getting pleasantly tipsy while a local band played some swinging Latin rhythms and a crew of locals warmly and emotionally talked---
Okay, maybe that does happen. Not for me. I do have one local restaurant I go to.
But for the most part, my life here is not very romantic. I don't know if it is me or my surroundings, but my life can be pretty basic!
So now I am hungover in my apartment and wondering what to do with my day.
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My life is pretty complicated, or at least it is in when I try to explain it. To me, it seems pretty obvious. Over the past eight years, I have lived in Chile, California, Oregon, Costa Rica, Montana, and then Costa Rica again. I am an ESL teacher, so part of my movement is for that reason, and part of it is just because...well, I've always moved around a lot.
So I live in Costa Rica and make a habit of visiting different places. I have a YouTube channel of the different little towns and parks I visit. There is a lot to see here! But as is also often the case, something like this sounds a lot better from the outside, like my life is not a constant stream of wonderful adventures on rainforest paths and colorful colonial era churches. Only on Fridays.
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Apparently, and no surprise, I was glowing-fish on there. But apparently, I created that account with my old aracnet email that has been lost, so I can't recover it.
Well, it was pretty sparse, anyway.
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I guess I will make little updates about my life! To fill people in on important backstory.

I am an online ESL teacher. I work on different platforms, and depending on the day and time of year, I can have a lot of work, or very little work. Some of my classes are as short as 15 minutes!

So what this means is that I often have scraps of time throughout the day, and that makes being online "doing nothing" a common part of my day. In fact, right now, I work in 3 minutes...so I am sitting here, thinking of something to say, and trying to explain this better, but it is kind of self-demonstrating, right?

Well, time to hop off.
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I think it was October of 2002 that I created my Livejournal. I also think that at some point I might have created a Dreamwidth account as well.
I have lots of thoughts about social media, the pros and cons of it, but most of that has already been said.
I am going to see if Dreamwidth can help me communicate with others. I might create a paid account at some point.
It has been a long week.
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