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I don't know if it counts as a nap, or as interrupted sleep, but I fell asleep around 9 PM and woke up after 11. I actually did the same thing the night before. I guess I need it. And now I am up late in the early hours.

Guess I will read until I get tired.
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This is not typical, but also not atypical: today I started work shortly before noon, worked until seven, and worked a total of three hours. Or got paid for three.

The frustrating thing is, that the two two hour breaks between classes could be a time where I could do something creative and important, but instead...I am hitting refresh and waiting for something to happen, while feeling very sleepy.
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I am still here.
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Well, I am still having some adventures, and still going some places.

But I also started playing Civilization II. A game that is 30 years old, and that I have been playing for almost all of that time, and which is one of the exemplars of the "just one more turn" game, where you start playing and it is 3 AM but you just have to see what happens next. Except for that in my case, I am showing a little restraint. No 3 AM eternal here! Just two hours between doing things. And letting my brain turn off. Which is maybe what I need right now.
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I guess I don't have a whole lot to say about it, at least here.

Maybe I should?

I need some chocolate milk and donuts.

I am 46

May. 28th, 2025 12:16 am
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Just turned 46 at midnight. Go me!
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So before I came to the US, a friend of mine asked me to visit, between my time in the hotel and my planned return "home". Well, I came to visit, and was so tired of moving around and living out of my suitcase, I just decided to stay here and pay rent and now I am living in my friend's basement and sleeping very deeply.
After a very busy 18 months when I moved internationally *twice*, I just don't want to do anything for a while.
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I seem to have moved.
I should make a real update of what is going on, but I keep on thinking it will be superseded too quickly!
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I guess my entire time in Vancouver, I didn't update.

I was very tired.

I am in Spokane now.

I am resting, resting, resting.

This really was the most tired that I've been in my life.
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It was an exhausting day, but over 4 airports and 16 hours, I reached my new "home".
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There are things I need to do to move, but even with only a few days left, there are things I can't do. I can't pack all my clothing. I need to keep some food in my house. I need to keep some things up in the air until the last few hours. So I am stuck in limbo. I told myself I would do things today. I ended up going for a walk, and then obsessively playing a game and shutting out the world.
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So I am leaving in a week, and the truth is, I am sad, and tired, and don't really want to deal with a lot of things right now.

Also, sorry that I am not keeping up with this more? Even though it could be valuable.
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So after last weekend, I thought my ear was good. This Wednesday, it started to itch again. By Thursday, I was in pain, and by Friday, I got some medicine to deal with it. I spent the weekend miserable and having problems sleeping and eating due to discomfort. I did get out Saturday, because I was going to be in pain so might as well not be bored. Had problems sleeping, and Sunday I was miserable and maybe a little bit crazy. The medication, which includes dexamethasone, might be making me dizzy and taking my appetite away. I am hoping I get better because I have a lot of things on my mind.
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It is also dumb but I've been staring at it:

2,2,3,2,5,2,7,2,3,5,11,2,13,2,3,5,17,2,19,2,3,5,23...
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Do you know what my primary emotion is about the state of the world, especially obvious political issues?
Annoyance.
Not grief, not fear, not anger. Not sadness.
I am just...annoyed. Not even really confused. Just annoyed.
Of course I certainly get afraid or angry sometime, but I just realized today that my primary emotion is annoyance.
I realized that after I read a repost on Instagram about how people were covering their grief because of society's denial of the pains of the subjugated, or something, and I looked at it and thought about it, and realized that I honestly don't feel grief. I honestly feel annoyed. Irritated. Frustrated. Kind of a natural reaction when you see people sticking a fork into a socket over and over again and then saying "Well, actually".
So that is my main emotion.
And writing this out has helped me realize that.
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...and then not posting. :/
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Starting Wednesday, I started feeling itching/irritation in my ear.
I had this last year, as a problem here. That was also the first time I've really had a problem with ear infections. I don't know if there is something here that specifically causes it.
It is one of those things that isn't agonizing, but is irritating and just kind of slowly erodes the quality of my life. :/
Hopefully it will all clear up soon, especially because I have lots of things I want to do.
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Ah, my work schedule. Today I had three one hour classes, spread between 2 and 8 PM. So I get up and get ready and feel antsy...not enough time and energy to go out (okay, I actually do go for a brief walk in the morning), but also too much time to do nothing.
My first class is cancelled. Too late, so with pay! Okay, that is good. And that gives me two hours, right? Two hours is enough time to work on a project, only its hot and I am uncomfortable and that work is floating somewhere on the horizon...and so I poke around and hit refresh and answer email. Okay, that makes sense, but then I realize that between waking and my first class, I have six hours. I go out once, twice, three times, go shopping. It is something. But it tickles the back of my mind: what else could I be doing in five or six hours? I could be writing the great American novel!
But I am not.
I am making plans for this weekend, at least. I think I am going to go lots of places to catch up on activities! Lets see how that will work!
Thank you for reading!
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It is about noon on Sunday, and what was supposed to be a weekend of triumphs probably won't be.
But who knows, I might be able to pull some rabbits out of a hat before too long.
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Well, it looks like February is almost gone.
The shortest month.
I did a lot of things in February, including finishing my walk from Alajuela to Turrialba, and seeing Liberia and Guanacaste Province. I also started two new students at work.
But...wow, it seems sometimes that I am draining the ocean with a teaspoon! There is just so much to do for myself and for the world. :/
So I am moving along but also...wow, sometimes it seems quite overwhelming.
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