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Comfort food and comfort activities, but:
Nov. 5th, 2025 10:50 pmI am the type of person who sometimes, meaning often, likes to do things like get a tray of microwave macaroni and cheese and watch YouTube videos. Take it easy, enjoy simple and cheesy pleasures! Read some comic books, and by comic books, I don't mean "thought-provoking graphic literature", I mean Spider-Man punches themed villains.
I like doing all of those things.
Especially now that we are in the cold winter months, totally time to hunker down, enjoy something simple and filling, enjoy lots of starches, and browse through simple reading and watching and repetitive gaming.
Except none of those things work for me. Like, I am trying to just enjoy myself, but they just don't register anymore. :(
I like doing all of those things.
Especially now that we are in the cold winter months, totally time to hunker down, enjoy something simple and filling, enjoy lots of starches, and browse through simple reading and watching and repetitive gaming.
Except none of those things work for me. Like, I am trying to just enjoy myself, but they just don't register anymore. :(
So now the sun is going down before 5...
Nov. 3rd, 2025 01:30 amWith daylights savings changed, the sun is going down before 5.
Two months ago, sixty days ago, in the first week of September, the temperature was over 100, and it was still light well past 7.
Gosh, I say, as a 46 year old, I certainly am surprised that time continues to move.
Two months ago, sixty days ago, in the first week of September, the temperature was over 100, and it was still light well past 7.
Gosh, I say, as a 46 year old, I certainly am surprised that time continues to move.
I went on a trip this weekend
Oct. 28th, 2025 11:37 amI went on a trip this weekend! Since it is Tuesday, I should probably catch people up that, since it started...last Thursday.
I took the train from Spokane to Seattle, a distance of about 300 miles (500 kilometers). Although actually I went to Edmonds, which is north of Seattle. The train leaves here at 3 AM! So I left the house at around 10 PM, got to the train station, and waited for four hours. Slept on the train for a few hours, woke up the next morning in Edmonds, spent a few hours there, and took a ferry across the Puget Sound (this is about a half hour ferry ride). I spent the night on the other side of the Puget Sound, in Poulsbo, and then next morning I took a ferry back across the Puget Sound, and after a small amount of time in Seattle proper, I got on a train going back home.
So that was a little more than 48 hours from the time I left my front door to the time I entered my front door. Or, a little less than 48 hours from boarding to deboarding.
I basically wanted to do something big, I hadn't traveled for a while. So I put together this itinerary to see as much as possible for cheap. I like traveling like this. Boarding a train at 3 AM is fun!
The only thing is, I didn't see anything totally new---everywhere I went was a place I had been before, although in some cases, not for 30 years!
I took the train from Spokane to Seattle, a distance of about 300 miles (500 kilometers). Although actually I went to Edmonds, which is north of Seattle. The train leaves here at 3 AM! So I left the house at around 10 PM, got to the train station, and waited for four hours. Slept on the train for a few hours, woke up the next morning in Edmonds, spent a few hours there, and took a ferry across the Puget Sound (this is about a half hour ferry ride). I spent the night on the other side of the Puget Sound, in Poulsbo, and then next morning I took a ferry back across the Puget Sound, and after a small amount of time in Seattle proper, I got on a train going back home.
So that was a little more than 48 hours from the time I left my front door to the time I entered my front door. Or, a little less than 48 hours from boarding to deboarding.
I basically wanted to do something big, I hadn't traveled for a while. So I put together this itinerary to see as much as possible for cheap. I like traveling like this. Boarding a train at 3 AM is fun!
The only thing is, I didn't see anything totally new---everywhere I went was a place I had been before, although in some cases, not for 30 years!
Okay, well, there are lots of reasons to read.
But one of the bonuses of reading for me is that at least in theory, I can imagine having something that helps me communicate with others.
Especially in my 20s, which was 20 years ago, there was still some cachet in knowing stuff that was "underground", because before social media, if you wanted to know about an "underground" book, you still heard about it from a friend. And so if you knew about "Hard Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World", it was still a feather in your cap.
And there is a bit of a contradiction here...because it kind of made you elite and exclusive, but it was also a way to connect!
So I used to feel something from reading, like I was putting in effort to something that would help me have that epiphany of connection.
And now...I do not feel that way. :/
Anyway, I know that was a bit rambly, but that is what this site is for.
I might expand on that thought later.
But one of the bonuses of reading for me is that at least in theory, I can imagine having something that helps me communicate with others.
Especially in my 20s, which was 20 years ago, there was still some cachet in knowing stuff that was "underground", because before social media, if you wanted to know about an "underground" book, you still heard about it from a friend. And so if you knew about "Hard Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World", it was still a feather in your cap.
And there is a bit of a contradiction here...because it kind of made you elite and exclusive, but it was also a way to connect!
So I used to feel something from reading, like I was putting in effort to something that would help me have that epiphany of connection.
And now...I do not feel that way. :/
Anyway, I know that was a bit rambly, but that is what this site is for.
I might expand on that thought later.
This is more backstory! And it might sound worse than it is.
When I left my apartment in Corvallis, Oregon in September 2023, that was the last time I lived in a place where I had my name on a rental contract. I then lived in an AirBnB in Costa Rica for six months, with my mother in Montana for six months, back in the same AirBnB in Costa Rica for six months, and then I ended up in Spokane for six months. So that is two years of moving between places, and at no point was this a legal, guaranteed, signature on a contract living situation.
There are obviously a lot of people who are homeless and living a struggle day by day. I am not that. But I also don't have the comfort of having a guaranteed living situation. Right now I am renting from someone I know, but that could change any day. It makes things a little bit harder to arrange. Like, you know, I haven't changed my credit card billing to this address. And thus, some things on Amazon can't be delivered here. I haven't tried. And I don't know how long I can/will continue living here. Sometimes I get tired of it. But also, I don't know if I have another option.
Anyway. There is more back story.
When I left my apartment in Corvallis, Oregon in September 2023, that was the last time I lived in a place where I had my name on a rental contract. I then lived in an AirBnB in Costa Rica for six months, with my mother in Montana for six months, back in the same AirBnB in Costa Rica for six months, and then I ended up in Spokane for six months. So that is two years of moving between places, and at no point was this a legal, guaranteed, signature on a contract living situation.
There are obviously a lot of people who are homeless and living a struggle day by day. I am not that. But I also don't have the comfort of having a guaranteed living situation. Right now I am renting from someone I know, but that could change any day. It makes things a little bit harder to arrange. Like, you know, I haven't changed my credit card billing to this address. And thus, some things on Amazon can't be delivered here. I haven't tried. And I don't know how long I can/will continue living here. Sometimes I get tired of it. But also, I don't know if I have another option.
Anyway. There is more back story.
My first real winter since 2022.
Oct. 15th, 2025 01:54 amA bit of relevant backstory:
From October of 2023 to March of 2024, I was in Costa Rica.
From October of 2024 to April of 2025, I was in Costa Rica again.
In between, I did experience a few places with cold. But not the middle of winter, and not long, long dark hours.
So right now, I am preparing myself for both. I am in Spokane, and we had our first frost, and daytime temperatures are hovering around 10C/50F. And it is getting dark earlier and earlier. Before long, we will be in the middle of winter...and all I will want to do is sleep and eat.
Lets see how I adjust to that...
From October of 2023 to March of 2024, I was in Costa Rica.
From October of 2024 to April of 2025, I was in Costa Rica again.
In between, I did experience a few places with cold. But not the middle of winter, and not long, long dark hours.
So right now, I am preparing myself for both. I am in Spokane, and we had our first frost, and daytime temperatures are hovering around 10C/50F. And it is getting dark earlier and earlier. Before long, we will be in the middle of winter...and all I will want to do is sleep and eat.
Lets see how I adjust to that...
I keep on moving around
Oct. 8th, 2025 11:01 pmI keep on moving around, I am back in Washington State.
I find it hard to make connections.
I find it hard to make connections.
Hey everyone I am drunk
Oct. 3rd, 2025 01:14 amI am intoxicated but also currently on the downhill of that, and sobering up, and it is gently raining outside.
I hadn't drunk for a while, and kind of wanted to clean out my brain. Sometimes relieving random weird stress by just blasting my brain with alcohol works well.
And so I hope this draws this trip to a close, and I hope I wake up to gentle rain, and not a hangover, and that my ankles don't hurt too much.
I hadn't drunk for a while, and kind of wanted to clean out my brain. Sometimes relieving random weird stress by just blasting my brain with alcohol works well.
And so I hope this draws this trip to a close, and I hope I wake up to gentle rain, and not a hangover, and that my ankles don't hurt too much.
I have just sunk into the ground, gradually removing sources of stimulation, just being myself, and maybe without much to say about myself.
I am staying in a Tiny House
Sep. 13th, 2025 01:22 amI am staying in a Tiny House behind my family's main house. It is about 120 square feet/12 square meters, and this allows me to relax.
In theory. The past week has been very stressful for me, and I often find it hard to relate to people, including people I used to consider my friends. :/
In theory. The past week has been very stressful for me, and I often find it hard to relate to people, including people I used to consider my friends. :/
I think it was a pretty good discovery for someone trying to get back to sleep after waking up early, but apparently the idea of primality of polyominoes has already been discovered.
Still, good catch!
https://oeis.org/A342430
Still, good catch!
https://oeis.org/A342430
Summer is going later
Aug. 27th, 2025 01:40 pmSo right now I am in the Pacific Northwest, where I grew up.
It is currently late August. From what I remember as a child, at the beginning of September, we would get the first hints of chills, mists, and maybe some rain. The past decade or so, it seems that the hot and dry weather has continued through September, and almost into October.
That also makes going outside much harder, as it is still hot. September could be prime adventure time, as it is brisk but still has lots of daylight. But right now, I am still stuck inside, still feeling tired and lazy. And trying to get up and make myself a 50 cent cup of ramen. :/
It is currently late August. From what I remember as a child, at the beginning of September, we would get the first hints of chills, mists, and maybe some rain. The past decade or so, it seems that the hot and dry weather has continued through September, and almost into October.
That also makes going outside much harder, as it is still hot. September could be prime adventure time, as it is brisk but still has lots of daylight. But right now, I am still stuck inside, still feeling tired and lazy. And trying to get up and make myself a 50 cent cup of ramen. :/
My summer continues to be mid
Aug. 20th, 2025 12:52 pmIt is not terrible, but my summer continues to be...myeh? Mid?
An entire world of adventure awaits out there, but it is hot, I had an ear infection, and I am anxious about how little work I have.
At least I am getting some reading done?
An entire world of adventure awaits out there, but it is hot, I had an ear infection, and I am anxious about how little work I have.
At least I am getting some reading done?
Napped and now it is early morning
Aug. 5th, 2025 12:41 amI don't know if it counts as a nap, or as interrupted sleep, but I fell asleep around 9 PM and woke up after 11. I actually did the same thing the night before. I guess I need it. And now I am up late in the early hours.
Guess I will read until I get tired.
Guess I will read until I get tired.
Three hour day, from 12 to 7.
Aug. 1st, 2025 12:36 amThis is not typical, but also not atypical: today I started work shortly before noon, worked until seven, and worked a total of three hours. Or got paid for three.
The frustrating thing is, that the two two hour breaks between classes could be a time where I could do something creative and important, but instead...I am hitting refresh and waiting for something to happen, while feeling very sleepy.
The frustrating thing is, that the two two hour breaks between classes could be a time where I could do something creative and important, but instead...I am hitting refresh and waiting for something to happen, while feeling very sleepy.
