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glowingfishAs the famous David Byrne quote goes...we might find ourselves asking, "How did I get here?" At what point in my life did I somehow play MASH that got me where I am now? How did my life decisions take me to this moment?
And also, how did the world get to this moment?
Okay, I can't answer the second one. Although it has a lot to do where I am now.
I live in an apartment outside a relative's home. I work online, and actually have a job that takes some education and skill, but since it is gig work, I make very little money. But I also currently don't have many expenses. I don't have a car, and I don't need any medication (which seem to be the big two for most people). I don't have any expensive hobbies, other than electronics (and even then, I haven't bought any new electronics for two years). I travel a lot, but because I don't go to restaurants, and travel by public transportation, it doesn't cost much. So I am living almost like a hermit.
I also realized in the past year or two that a lot of my former relationships haven't been doing much for me. I am not some type of radical misanthrope, but most social events have just ceased to do much for me.
(Note: all of this personal stuff is connected with the world situation. The amount of cruelty that I have seen from other people makes me wary about who I socialize with, even if on the surface things look good)
So I am 46, living an acceptable life, but feeling a very different emotional inclination than I did just a few years ago. I like to work, go outside, study languages, meditate, and read. That is the sum of my life right now. And this wasn't a forced, radical decision, I just started moving away from certain things.
And also, how did the world get to this moment?
Okay, I can't answer the second one. Although it has a lot to do where I am now.
I live in an apartment outside a relative's home. I work online, and actually have a job that takes some education and skill, but since it is gig work, I make very little money. But I also currently don't have many expenses. I don't have a car, and I don't need any medication (which seem to be the big two for most people). I don't have any expensive hobbies, other than electronics (and even then, I haven't bought any new electronics for two years). I travel a lot, but because I don't go to restaurants, and travel by public transportation, it doesn't cost much. So I am living almost like a hermit.
I also realized in the past year or two that a lot of my former relationships haven't been doing much for me. I am not some type of radical misanthrope, but most social events have just ceased to do much for me.
(Note: all of this personal stuff is connected with the world situation. The amount of cruelty that I have seen from other people makes me wary about who I socialize with, even if on the surface things look good)
So I am 46, living an acceptable life, but feeling a very different emotional inclination than I did just a few years ago. I like to work, go outside, study languages, meditate, and read. That is the sum of my life right now. And this wasn't a forced, radical decision, I just started moving away from certain things.
