Kind of like when I forget to plug in my phone

[glowingfish]

 Sometimes, USB-C cables and connectors being slippery, I will think I have plugged them in, and then when I wake up, I see that I haven't, and it is sitting at 12% battery life or something!

Anyway, sometimes the same thing happens to my mind and emotions. I think I will wake up feeling charged, rested, happy, and ready to take on the day...but instead, I wake up feeling just so tired, and like nothing I could do is a source of energy and happiness. Which is odd, because quite often, I can feel happy and engaged over almost anything. But other days...nope, nothing, life just seems like a series of uphill struggles without reward. And I try to start jiggling the little USB cable in my heart, basically telling myself: "Just get into place and I will give you a pizza later! We can read a comic book and eat pizza!" but for some reason, the little USB cable doesn't get into place, and I can feel my energy being empty---often literally. Like, a big empty styrofoam feeling in my chest. 

So, right now, time to go and eat a little minipizza anyway. 

Comments

[rafqa]

When I was a divinity student, a teacher once said that modern people have a hard time describing spirituality without comparing it to electricity.

I don't know about you, but for me, those kinds of trivial pleasures can be very restful and regenerating if I'm feeling done with life and its day to day nonsense: tired, overworked, disappointed, someone was a jerk, etc. But if I have more global problems--am I going to lose my house? run out of money? die of some horrible disease?--those kinds of temporary escapes don't help at all, in fact can make things feel worse. Sometimes.